everything under the sun

so here's a bit of whats been going on and what i've been thinking this last week and 1/2 of no blogging.

last week i took Mayden to the doctor for what should have been her 2 year check up but really ended up being her 2.5 year check up... that's what happens when you have your second kid on almost the exact same day as your first. anyway, it wasn't as horrible as i thought it would be. we'd been reading about the Bernstein Bears getting a check up, watching Elmo visit the doctor and even did some roll playing. she tried so hard to be brave but she lost her cool a few times. i was so surprised that she cried when the Doctor listened to her heart...not so surprised when she cried about the shot. good news though: she's healthy and no more needles until she's 4!!

Heath Ledger unexpectedly died last week. so sad. death is such a crappy thing. i mean it's probably great for the people doing the dieing (hopefully) but it totally sucks for everyone who's left behind. i think the thing that makes me so sad about Heaths death (besides the fact that he was a fantastic actor) is that he was my age & has a two year old daughter. this poor little girl probably doesn't even know what's going on. since having kids i sometimes think about what would happen if i suddenly died. morbid i know, but still a real fear i have. i know they would be loved and well taken care of by their dad & grandparents but still how sad would that be for them?! i guess that's a bit selfish of me to expect my kids to be devastated over my death... but i think they would be. it makes me cry to really think about it, i mean the thought of not being able to be with my kids forever (or at least a really long time) kills me.

Friday i took May-May to our first 'aqua tots' class at the community college pool. she loved it! it was so nice to be doing something different for a change. the class is only 30 minutes long so it seems like as soon as we get in the pool it's time to get out. plus with all the work of dragging her there and getting bathing suits on then off again i really wish it was about an hour long. or at least schedule some free time in after our class so we can stay in the pool. anyway it's a lovely addition to our week.

last night i figured out that Cameron can hold his own bottle! because of our failed breastfeeding attempt i try hard to mimic it as much as i can by making it a point to be the one to give him most of his bottles and to always hold him, make eye contact etc. BUT yesterday Cam was super hungry right at the moment May ran her lip into our computer table. she was fine but i pushed my luck and decided to try and sneak some saline solution (which she hates!) into her booger filled nose and in turn created an even more major freakout... complete with vomit! so needless to say Cameron had to wait. i eventually threw (not literally) May in the bath and got Camo set up with his first solo bottle. i left the room fully expecting for the bottle to be on the floor when i returned but i was wrong... i couldn't believe it, he ate the whole thing by himself!

hopefully i'm back to regular blogging!